Since my sister and my brother-in-law passed away, my views on life and God changed drastically. I started reading and trying to understand why. I don’t believe that Jesus was the Messiah. I don’t believe there will ever be a Messiah. I believe in God, but God is definitely not a white-bearded man up in the clouds that will punish you if you don’t believe and make you spend eternity in purgatory. God is the universe, and God is everything in the universe. God is in me, in the ladybugs, in the birds that sing in the trees that grow, in the constellations and the planets within our solar system. God is an all-encompassing being, & we are all part of it. I painted part of our solar system with the Milky Way because I Thank the stars for dying so I can live because we are all Stardust. And I know my sister will always be with me in everything around me. The feel of a breeze, the sound of a hummingbird as its wings buzz by me, the night sky lit up with stars, the laughter of my children and my niece and nephews. I know she is OK, and I know that she would want me to be OK. So after six years of grieving and crying and not understanding, I’ve taken steps to heal and get my life back on track for my children, her children, my father, and, most importantly, myself. If I am OK, everything else will fall into place. I know she wouldn’t want my suffering and depression for this long. So, this was my first attempt at painting something that reminds me of her, the stars, where I’d like to think she’s dancing amongst them.