“This friend of mine that I knew at church. He was diagnosed with cancer. And in my mind, I was meaning to see him. I thought he had maybe a year or two left. Found out through Facebook he passed on. I feel the regret of not seeing him. And he was really a good guy. How do you deal with that? You have a phone conversation with a guy. We talk; he’s a great storyteller, great family guy. You’re meaning to see him, but you don’t. You forget about it because you get so busy with life. And all the sudden…boom. You regret not seeing him. That’s an additional hurt.
I cocoon myself. Being in my room, watching TV in my bed, whatever; that’s usually what I do. I don’t want to be touched…emotionally touched.”