My big brother Chris took his life the week of June 21st, 2022. He was 59 and has three kids, the youngest turned 18 a week before he died. Chris was a comic, a musician, a father, son, brother, friend, addict, Navy vet, good guy who sometimes made bad choices. He founded a non-profit for suicide prevention. He was speaking and educating folks about suicide prevention and mental illness until the week before he died. He helped people. He helped me. He could not help himself. Here he is, trying to save lives. I miss him so much. I wish he felt how much we loved him.